While struggling with infertility, we can’t put the rest of our lives on hold. Sometimes we feel like shutting the rest of the world out. Or we just want things to be different. Sometimes we want to quit, whether it’s working, teaching, serving, even socializing, but we can’t always do that. Life goes on.
One of my favorite Streams is October 30th. Hebrews 12:1 says, “Let us run with patience.” George Matheson tells us what running with patience means. Running is not the absence of patience, the eagerness to reach the goal. Patience is not lying down. Harder is the patience that can run. Greater strength is the power to work under a stroke; to have a great weight at your heart and still to run; to have a deep anguish in your spirit and still perform the daily task. It is a Christ-like thing! Most of us are called to exercise our patience, not in bed, but in the street. We are called to bury our sorrows not in lethargic quiescence, but in active service. There is no burial of sorrow so difficult as that; it is the “running with patience.”
Matheson challenges us with this thought: “Men ask for a rainbow in the cloud; but I would ask more from Thee. I would be, in my cloud, myself a rainbow – a minister to others’ joy.”
We want to see the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. We want to see a rainbow – a promise, a ray of hope – in our cloud. God does promise that, but how about becoming a rainbow in our cloud of infertility?
My husband and I began teaching the young married class in our church in the Spring of 2000 and we loved it. We taught that class for 4 ½ years. What do young married couples normally do? Have babies! I often hosted or helped with many of the baby showers for these young mommies-to-be. God truly gave me the means, desire, and grace to want to do this for my ladies. I never felt like I did it out of duty or grudgingly, even though some people thought it was difficult for me. Sure, some showers were difficult, if I happened to start a new cycle the day of the shower. This quote really spoke to me in the midst of my infertility and helped me realize this was one small way I could minister to others on their joyous occasions while still hoping to someday celebrate the same joyous occasion for myself.
Perhaps you, too, can now see how you are ministering or have ministered to others’ joy and become a rainbow in your cloud. I have never seen a rainbow cloud in person, but I am sure it is an awesome sight to behold. Rainbow clouds are made of tiny ice crystals. When the cloud is at the right angle to the sun, the crystals will refract the sunlight into the colors of the rainbow. This is rare. When we have the right relationship with Jesus and continue running with patience, we can reflect the Son of God, the light of Jesus Christ in our cloud.